It’s not your fault. No, really. It isn’t.
But I don’t even know what it is you blame yourself for. Doesn’t matter. It’s not your fault.
I’m not going to insist that you stop blaming yourself. That can easily add blame to blame, when you beat yourself up every time you beat yourself up.
But it’s not your fault! None of it is. Not what you blame yourself for. Not the blame itself. You are completely and unconditionally absolved.
Blame the atoms! There is no self. There is only the One Dance, the Cosmic Body. Everything “you” do is actually the Universe’s doing. There is no blame.
There is no blame!