Maybe all this spiritual seeking is just a way to avoid being present for the darkness that knocks on our door. Maybe we need to have a panic attack or a breakdown. Maybe the only real pathway to the Light is the through the dark. Maybe the only stairway into Heaven is a plunge into the abyss.
It is okay to run from pain. It is perfectly and wonderfully human. But it is also okay to let it in, to let it flow, so we no longer have to live in its shadow. It can’t really hurt You. You are invulnerable to sorrow and rage. You transcend wet cheeks and fiery veins. You are Whole, though broken to pieces. You are Found, though utterly lost. You are Light, though buried in darkness. Let it in.